On a much lighter note, I spent the day listening to Mt Eden and putting together my man’s Valentine’s Day gift. I’ve put a lot of thought into this gift. It’s not some shitty Hallmark Card & box of chocolates. This is the first Valentine’s Day I’ve had someone to really go all out for who I know will appreciate it. Someone to really share it with. I couldn’t be more grateful to have him in my life. He knows me better than anyone else and I can say this with confidence. I trust him and I really have no doubts. We bicker, but never fight. He never gets angry and has never said anything even close to negative to me. It’s almost surreal. I’ve completely gone from one extreme to the other. I feel as if my ex didn’t treat me so badly, I wouldn’t appreciate what I have now so much. This almost scares me because it feels too good to be true and I’m a skeptic. Every wall that I’ve built around myself he’s torn down. I don’t feel bad about it though. I feel open and vulnerable but it feels good this time. It feels right. I don’t feel taken advantage of, or abused.
I feel… free, or something.